Dear Sean,

while you're away I'll try to stay busy.
while you're gone I'll try not to cry,
That's all.

Dear Sean,

Today was a long day for me. I got up early (well I guess if you consider I wasn't really sleeping at all it wasn't getting up) and I had to be at work by 7. I waited for your text or call. Boy was that awful. And finally there it was. "I love you Lauren. I miss you" right on my phone. Great. Now the tears start at work, and it won't be the last time. By the end of the day I will have broke out into full tears more the 3 times. The day's going by really slow and I'm ready to go home and see our little boy. He makes me not so lonely and with how happy he is to see me when I get home its hard not to smile and thank my Heavenly Father for his little light that he's put in my life.
I have been doing things I've never done before, things you usually do. I went and put the electricity in our names today... It doesn't sound very hard but it turned out to be a LONG process. I guess it would have helped if I had the right address and went to the right place the first try. Finally when that was done I headed up to Farmington for Kayla's graduation. It was fun to see her in her cap and gown. It was just your mom and dad, meg and I and also your mom's parents there. She would have liked for you to be there.
After that I started the drive home that should have only taken me an hour. Well it turned into two hours when they shut all but one lane down on the freeway. Ahhhhh... And again I cried in the car. Why do I keep thinking about you?? I know it will just make me cry.

BUT besides all of that I can't help but be so proud of you. Not many men can put their faith in the Lord and put aside all physical roadblocks and run through the pain and do what you did to get offered the chance to go to OCS this summer. Yes I am proud of you. And yes it will only be 10 weeks. But yes, I'm still sad. and Yes this is a hard thing we're doing.

I love you and I miss you. And I can't wait to talk to you in 3 weeks. You are my wonderful husband, my sweetie pie and my love. I can't believe how much I miss you. I didn't know this kind of emotion could be so strong for me. I love you all the whole day. I miss you cute boy.

Love,
your wife.